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I opened the first letter.
Dear.. Sorry.. Dearest Dev,
Aaj mera phone kyu nahi receive kiya..10. Baar call Kiya maine.. Mr. Obodro..Itna gussa achha nahi hota. I am writing this letter because you are the first person with whom I want to share my happiness. We are expecting.. I am pregnant. Vishwas nahi ho Raha na..Mujhe bhi nahi hua..2 times test kiya…But its positive.. I missed you Dev.. yahi baat batane ke liye call kr rahi thi.. Kolkata me hu na aur Baba mujhe Delhi Jane nahi denge Varna mai ghar aa ke tumhe ye baat batati..I just dropped a text to you..Aur mujhe pata hai jab ye text tum padhoge the first thing you will do is you are going to call me. I am waiting desperately..Miss you..
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Oh my god..she was calling me pr maine vo phone use krna chhod diya tha..I saw her missed calls but never called her back. Sochata tha uski aavaj sununga to khud Ko rok nahi paunga. Humara koi future hi nahi tha. Maa Sona ko kabhi except hi nahi kr saki..na kabhi kr payengi..to phir khud ko aur Sona Ko fake hopes dene se kya fayada. Ma meri jimmedari thi. Kaise usase dur jata jiske vajah se aaj mujhe lok jante hai.. aur yahi soch kr maine SONAKSHI ke msgs kabhi nahi padhe. Mai sochata tha ki agar mai Sonakshi se contact rakhunga to vo kabhi aage hi nahi badh payegi. Aur humare rishte ne bahot rishto Ko nuksan pohchaya tha. Sonakshi ek achha life partner deserve krti hai..mai usko kisi aur ke saath nahi dekh skta tha pr use rokne ki vajah mere paas nahi thi. How stupid I was..Jab use meri jarurat thi mai nahi tha..There was another letter..
It’s been 7 months now. Tumhari Sona gubbare ki tarah moti ho gayi hai..pr shayad tum mujhe tumhari nahi smjhte. I have tried calling you many times. But shayad tumne give up kr diya mujh pe. Your Sona needs you Dev..Pata hai mujhe maa ke haath ka besan ka halwa khane ka man kr Raha hai..It’s not me the baby is very demanding..Shayad apni dadi Ko yaad krta hai..
With lots of love..Sona
I moved to read next one..
We are blessed with “tiny Sonakshi”.. aur pata hai jab usne meri taraf first time dekha to itne gusse se dekha.. mano jaise puchh rahi ho ki mere Papa kaha hai.. Bilkul Apne baap pe gayi hai.. gussewali.. I wish you could see her..
A drop of tear rolled from my eyes..
Kal baby ka naming ceremony hai.. mai uska Naam Suhana rakhane wali hu..Pata nahi tumhe pasand aayega ya nahi..
I picked up next one
Aaj mai Baba se jhagadkr Delhi aayi thi tumse milne..pr watchman ne mujhe andar nahi aane diya. Maine socha Soha Ko dekha ke tumhara Dil pighal jayega..But hard luck…We need you..
Pata hai aaj Soha kitna ro rahi thi. Ghar me mai Soha dono hi the.. ek ghantetak roti rahi. I was failing to calm her down. Don’t know what strikes me.. I took your photo which was in my bag and showed her..And she stopped crying. Her little hands were trying to catch your pic. She was smiling. I felt bad for her, for you and for us. I couldn’t give her a complete family..We miss you
There were number of letters.. I was reading as fast as I can..And crying like hell..
There was one letter which was written on 15 March 2014.. I still remember that day..
I went home early and was shocked after seeing the scenerio. Maa was trying to fix my marriage with someone.. I don’t even remember the name of that girl..Thank god I reached on time. I was so angry.. I fought with Ma in front of that family and asked them to leave. I went to bed..And I saw the worst dream of my life..I woke up shouting Sona’s name.. I was sweating like hell.. Everyone gathered around me.
Ishwari: Dev kya hua beta
Dev: Sonakshi..Sona bahot taklif me hai.. Mujhe uske paas Jana hai..Vo bahot Dard me hai…
Ishwari: Dev tera badan bukhar se tap raha hai..
Dev: nahi ma mujhe Jana hai
Ishwari: Dev bukhar Kam ho jayega tab chale jana..Bhaiya aap doctor Ko bula lijiye..
Doctor came.. injected me. I couldn’t sleep.. I got up and went to bedroom.. Stood under shower..Cold water also couldn’t make me feel better. It was 2am. I took my phone and dialled her number..She didn’t receive. Gussa hogi mujhape. Maine uske calls kabhi receive nahi liye na msgs padhe.. But I don’t know why I was feeling weird..That something is not right..As if my Sona is in immense pain. I felt so helpless.. I kept on calling but no use.. I consoled myself that she must be sleeping. I tried calling her next day but she didn’t receive. I asked Elena to call Sourabh and ask if Sona is fine. She did the same but Sourabh didn’t receive the call. She called Bejoy uncle. He shouted on Elena that stop faking emotions. He refused to give the cell to Sona. I hoped that she is fine.. next week went in restlessness..
I started reading the letter.
Parso Soha ne puchha Mumma mere Papa kaha hai.. I was not ready to answer this question..But I have to. I told her that we will meet him soon. I called Jatin and asked him to book tickets for Delhi and accompany me. He agreed. Kal hum Delhi pohche.. aaj mai Soha aur Jatin went to Dixit house. And it was the worst day of my life.. bitter than the day of our separation. We were standing at the door. They were finalising you wedding date. You moved on Dev.. the sky was falling on your Khargosh.. I was so scared. Today I realised ki pyar khona kya hota hai. My soul is tired. Pichhale 4 saal Main Soha me tumhe dhundti rahi..Or Shayad ab nahi kr paungi.. main Soha me us insaan Ko kaise dhundu jo ab mera hai hi nahi. You gave upon me. I am done being brave, strong..Tumhari Sona tut gayi..Haar gayi.. I am giving upon my life.. I quit..
Your most familiar stranger.. Sona
OMG..She came home.. I she saw the half truth.. Jatin was there with her. I went down stairs. Jatin was sleeping with Soha.. Yesterday Bijoy baba called him here. I went to the room and knocked the door..He opened the door..
Jatin: Dev kya hua.. Sona thik hai na?
Dev: haa vo thik hai
Jatin: to phir itni raat ko tum..
Dev: tum 3 saal pehle Sona aur Soha Ko leke mere ghar aaye the. Uske baad kya hua??
Episode ends here*****